Waiting on the Lord

I'm back.
I was taking full advantage of the school holidays.
Went camping for 12 - yes TWELVE - days!
Amazing.
But I am so happy to be HOME!

What to do about weight-loss....

A big part of me wants control.
Planning.
Back-up plans.
Menu plans.
Aggressive & unrealistic plans.
Just to make sure I'll get back on track.

And there's a big part of me trying to talk me down.
I have a fear of failure.
I have tried and tried and tried to lose weight.
I have failed!
And now I feel like any new "plan" I implement will fail.
Because, well, honestly -
it always has.
I got down to 142 lbs once -
I can't remember how anymore.
Because even after that total success, I wasn't happy...
or something came up...
bad season of life - holidays
(I do remember that number came in November.)
And after that, I changed plans.
And now -
I've tried everything under the sun.
And nothing has worked.

And then... there's another big part of me saying
"Stop trying to control everything!"
And THAT is the voice I want to listen to today.
I want to trust God to help me get healthy & fit.
I am looking forward to the day where when people ask,
"Wow! Looking great! How did you do it?"
I can answer:
"Actually? Honestly? I stopped trying to control everything, I prayed and trusted God to help me do it, and He did!"
That would be awesome.
Because the alternative would be so worldly.
"I followed Michelle Bridges plan!" or
"I joined a weight-loss FB group." or
"I never ate more than 1200 calories/day, and exercised 6days/week."

I want the Spiritual answer!

I have to start trusting God.
Heaven help me.

But... if God does give me a worldly answer,
(ie. yes, go ahead and do bootcamp every day)
then, I will trust Him in that too.
But until I hear from Him,

I'll be waiting on The Lord.

:D
Happy.

Tuesday

Bootcamp! Yes!
7:45am - Mountain bread - 70
             2 scrambled eggs - 220
            1 shortcut bacon rasher - 40
            onion & green capsicum - 20
     Breakfast Burrito: 350
...

Get Ready for Summer Challenge

Kinda funny, but not the first time I've taken part in a "Summer challenge" here in our Australian Winter :)
That's cool.
It's about the support and challenge, not the season.

Week 1 task - set goals!
This will be good.

1. Weight loss - 10 weeks, 10 kg! (That's 20lbs)
2. NSV (Non-Scale Victory) - Get into my size 10 dress!
3. Exercise - Bootcamp 6 days a week!
4. Nutrition - No alcohol except Saturday, limit 3. Otherwise, track & post calories - goal 1300/day

That's it!
Just Faithfully Do It!

Mondays rock!

Okay, so this weekend I didn't track what I ate, and it probably wasn't all that great anyway.
Very busy, and eating out...but I didn't lose all control.
Sometimes we just do the best we can with the given circumstance.
And then, start again.
I love a fresh start!
Mondays in particular :)
This week is exciting because I plan to do Bootcamp each and EVERY morning!
Then Friday arvo we go camping for a week!
Not just my own family, but several friends' families are joining us too!
Good times.

So, before I go on our camping holiday,
I will track eating/calories this week.
Just to keep accountable.

Bootcamp 6-7am
7:45am - 1 slice bread - 70
               cheese - 40
               tomato & avacado - 50
10am - 2 stuffed tomatoes, leftover - 240
10:30 - carrots, celery & hommus - 100
Total so far - 500
1pm - 2 slices pizza - 340
          cheesy garlic bread - 200
3pm - chips - 200
6:30 - bowl of home-made chicken crock-pot soup 200
7pm - tea 30
Total: 1470 calories

I am making a big change!
I realised today that a big problem of mine is portion control at dinner time.
There is always a reason why "I deserve a little more."
But it's really healthy food...
But I exercised today...
But it's only like 50 calories more...
But I'll do an extra work-out tomorrow.... (yeah sure)
But I'll only eat one serving tomorrow.... (yeah right!)
So as of today, I will not allow myself to eat seconds.
No matter how "starving" I am,
I will only eat one salad plate or bowl of food.
No more.
Period.
Sound like a good plan?

The New Me

5:40 - hit snooze
5:50 - CRAP! Rush to get ready.
6:00am - Bootcamp!
kicked my butt - I'm talking Jelly Arms!

But feeling awesome too :)

8am - banana 100 cal
9:30am - Citizenship Ceremony!

I'm officially an AUSSIE! 

YAY!

12:30 - leftover rice noodle stir-fry 240

            tea - 30

1:30pm - still hungry

             leftover potato casserole - 220 cal

Cal so far -  590

Great day!
3:30pm - 1 cheesy biscuit - 100
6:30pm - Few bites of nachos - 150 (overestimate I hope - tasted like 80)
              Garden salad - 200
               3 beers & glass of champagne (to celebrate citizenship) -  550
Total: 1590 - would have been 1040 without the drink :( So close, but so far away