I was taking full advantage of the school holidays.
Went camping for 12 - yes TWELVE - days!
But I am so happy to be HOME!
What to do about weight-loss....
A big part of me wants control.
Aggressive & unrealistic plans.
Just to make sure I'll get back on track.
And there's a big part of me trying to talk me down.
I have a fear of failure.
I have tried and tried and tried to lose weight.
I have failed!
And now I feel like any new "plan" I implement will fail.
Because, well, honestly -
it always has.
I got down to 142 lbs once -
I can't remember how anymore.
Because even after that total success, I wasn't happy...
or something came up...
bad season of life - holidays
(I do remember that number came in November.)
And after that, I changed plans.
And now -
I've tried everything under the sun.
And nothing has worked.
And then... there's another big part of me saying
"Stop trying to control everything!"
And THAT is the voice I want to listen to today.
I want to trust God to help me get healthy & fit.
I am looking forward to the day where when people ask,
"Wow! Looking great! How did you do it?"
I can answer:
"Actually? Honestly? I stopped trying to control everything, I prayed and trusted God to help me do it, and He did!"
That would be awesome.
Because the alternative would be so worldly.
"I followed Michelle Bridges plan!" or
"I joined a weight-loss FB group." or
"I never ate more than 1200 calories/day, and exercised 6days/week."
I want the Spiritual answer!I have to start trusting God.
Heaven help me.
But... if God does give me a worldly answer,
(ie. yes, go ahead and do bootcamp every day)
then, I will trust Him in that too.
But until I hear from Him,
I'll be waiting on The Lord.