Our Growing Family

I always wanted to have more children.
But after my youngest turned 5, I resigned to the fact that my husband just didn't.
He said, "Maybe someday."
But I wouldn't want my kids to grow up with such a big age gap.
So a year and a half ago, I gave away all our baby stuff.
The pram (stroller), car seats, baby clothes, portable cot, everything.
Now, (my youngest is 6) and....
I'm pregnant!
Due 8 May 2014.
My husband's idea of course.
I'm not thrilled about the 7 year gap.
(I am thinking I might need to have more than one so he can have a playmate.)
((Yeah, hoping it's a he :))

Problem is, I have certainly lost my confidence in caring for a little baby.
Truth is, I'm pretty nervous.
And excited!
And really really nervous!
It's been 6 years ago!
I was a completely different person then!
Oh well. Been there, done that... maybe it's like riding a bicycle?

As for weight-loss, I'm obviously not going to restrict my food too much.
But I am hoping to stay the same weight throughout pregnancy,
And make very healthy food choices, of course.
I've heard WW has an excellent nursing mothers program starting when the baby is 6 weeks old.
Remembering back to after Cadyn (my first born, now 11) was born,
My best diet ever was done when he was a baby.
I lost 17 lbs in 12 weeks.
It was pretty hard.
But I think I will be mighty inspired to get my body back into shape.

So, here's to a great 8 months ahead!

6 days

I've been doing so well! 

At my first WW meeting on Monday, I was excited, it was really great. 

I even survived the weekend within my pp allowance. 

I was on fire! 

Then yesterday I got a crazy sweet craving, and instead of having a chai tea, which usually calms me down and satisfies that craving, or even having a chocolate protein shake, which I did think about briefly, I decided to bake. 

I found a bar of white chocolate which I was going to use for baking, and baked with half of it, and ate the other half.

Then I ate some of the white chocolate coconut slice that I baked.

Then I had a few beers. 

Then I ate fish and chips we bought for dinner instead of cooking my healthy stir fry I had planned.

Then a few more beers.

And not one bit of exercise to speak of. 

Yes. I had a blowout.

Today is a new day.

And I'm going to be over my pp again.

But not as bad as yesterday.

I had two more pieces of white choc coconut slice, and 2 lunches instead of one.

But I am stopping it right now,

I have done a 30 min swim this morning, and I have a stroke correction class this evening, so more swimming. 

That will help.

And tomorrow is a new day. 

A

Day 2

Okay, so Day 2 hasn't really even started yet, but I have just a few things to say.

I did end up having a couple beers yesterday.
But only 2. I resisted a third.
I still ended up 1 lb lighter this morning.
I am so excited at the potential weight loss!!!
If I stick to this all week - which I absolutely plan on doing
I reckon I'll lose maybe 3-4 lbs! YES!

I wasn't really hungry all day yesterday except in the afternoon.
I must watch out for those hours of temptation.
And after I went to sleep I was hungry.
I never get that!
I guess I am way too used to gorging myself with seconds at dinner, plus finishing the kids meals, and possibly a few beers, and going to bed full.
But as I lay in bed last night, hungry... I couldn't help be think of my body converting fat into energy.
WW, thank you for helping me control my food!

Porridge & berries for brekky. It's my super food.

Day 1 on WW

Okay!
I know WW "Points" is sort of like counting calories (my nemesis)
But it is way more fun!
It's exciting, as new weight-loss programs often are... in the beginning.
For example, today I've earned 3 points for walking 35 min, and am about to earn some more with a dvd workout.
I only ate 6 points for breakfast, 7 for lunch, and going for 10 at dinner.
10 points - for chicken tacos! I can eat THREE! Yessssss :)
That's a total 23 today.
I can have 31! Plus the three exercise points I earned (plus the points I'm about to earn!)
Maybe I can have a few beers!
Wait... lemme check the points...

Okay!
One bottle of ale is 5 points.
Low-carb or light beer is 4 points.

And do you know what? If I have one beer, there'll be 5 more calling my name from the fridge.
That's 20 points for the normal four beers I'd have on a Friday night.

Not this weekend!
This weekend is Alcohol free.

I'm so proud of myself.
I have to admit, today before lunch, I added up what I was going to eat, and when I discovered it would be 14 points, I thought to myself, "Is this food really worth the points?"
I decided to make better choices, and ended up being really full on only 7!
THAT is what WW is all about.

You have one very happy mumma here.
A soon-to-be very much lighter mumma!

In other news, I went to an interview at UQ this morning.
It's not as desirable as I thought it was going to be.
They're looking for after school and weekends (along with everyone else).
If I can just get my lifeguard quals, I can stay at Bluefit in Spring Hill (SOooooooo close to home!) and work there.
If I need more hours, I'll just work on Saturdays or after school at NF, which pays better anyway.
Just for the summer season.
I'll talk to Johnny tonight and see what he thinks I should do.

Gracie (my 6 yo) is spending the night at a friends' home tonight, along with 5 other giddy girls. Poor parents! We did that only 2 months ago with the same group of friends, and it was chaos! Two ended up in tears. It was memorable, that's for sure. This group of girls will be t.r.o.u.b.l.e. come high school. Oh dear.

Okay! Off to put on work-out clothes, and burn some fat :)

I have to start over again

I know, I know. It's been a whole year.
Oops.
I fell out of the blogging world, but I really need to come back.
I am at my all-time highest weight ever.
200lbs.
Yeah.
Looking back through my blog posts, I can not believe I let myself go.
Sitting on the couch even this moment.
Being lazy.
Knowing there's laundry to do...
There's a sink full of dirty dishes,
I have fertilized half of the garden this morning, but I need to finish the back yard.
I have yet to even plan a work-out today.
I feel like a failure.

But it has to end today.

I have been on Roni's websites more and more lately, and following her FB page, and she is such an inspiration to me.
It helps me to see there is hope.
If she can do that with her life, so can I damnit!

So I am heading over to weight-watchers website in a few secs (after I post this) to check it out.
I've tried everything else, so why not WW.
Everything else has failed and left me heavier than I started, but Roni made WW work for her.
Candace Cameron in her book Reshaping It All said that all diets work if you stick with it.
She said to chose the one that works for you, and follow it faithfully.
So why not WW, that has helped so many others.
I can do this!

The other thing I want to do is develop this blog a bit more, and write consistently. Weekly.
In a few months after I get consistent, I want to build a following, and possibly develop the page to gather a lil bit of income.
And why not? If I completely change my life around, lose all this fat around my gut, maybe I can be an inspiration to others out there, like Roni is.

So here is my official "Before" photo. At a whopping 200 lbs (201.7 to be exact).

I have a lot of work to do... and a lot less eating.

I want to become a person who is fit, healthy, and has tons of energy.

I want to be able to wear clothes confidently.

I want to do heaps of sporty things like rafting and canoeing, hiking and climbing, and even just running again. 

I have been walking a bit, but I do miss running.

My knees, feet & ankles can't handle it at this weight.

And I think I really want to do a Tough Mudder.

It looks like so much fun, and I want that feeling of accomplishment that comes from it.

Someday...

Okay! Off to WW.com!